Wednesday, March 16, 2011


Loneliness ….an emotion that every living being experiences at some point and time.  Whether it’s a stray animal or one of us humans.  It’s a feeling of dread of abandonment of total isolation, and let me tell you ….it can be the most daunting experience in a place like this, where there is no one to reach out to… for fear of trust.  For in here, you learn to trust no one, like you’ve never learned to trust no one before! For this place breeds mistrust, and that in turn causes more separation, more isolation and a deeper loneliness like most will never experience. And that you can be thankful for not experiencing.  Hopefully you will never have to deal with a hell like this, but if you do, then you will have to dig down really deep in order to survive…and survival will be your goal.  You will fight to find moments of joy or peace and tranquility.  You will be lost in a world like no other.  Your world will be turned upside down! Absolute madness! Total chaos! Where stupidity is a daily experience and one like no other.  How can one survive in such an environment?  I often ask myself that same question, and sometimes survival in here is second to second.  Live in this very moment, exist in this second and don’t try to do any more than that! For each and every second may require a different set of circumstances or a different thought, to get through that moment.  This place….and the day to day survival within its like nothing you have ever experienced.  This is your worst nightmare gone terribly wrong, for not only are you alone and isolated from society with limited human contact, but you sit in this cage with the imminent onslaught of death hanging over your head for decades! Witnessing the men you have known, being murdered by the state under the fraudulent concept of equal justice.  This in turn brings more daunting loneliness and depression into an existence that is already far too lonely to begin with.
Some people think they know what true loneliness is, but unless they experience this, they truly have no concept of true loneliness, yes, they may know loneliness to a degree, but, this place takes loneliness to a whole other level like I have never experienced before!
What I am getting at is, no matter how bad you think the situation is, it could be worse.  You could be here, secondly, no matter how hard things get, eventually they have got to improve, and for them to improve, and for you to really appreciate the improvement, you have to experience struggle.  I’ve dug and clawed my way through this life, and I have come so close to giving up on many occasions, but I have hung tough, I have endured.  You can do the same.  No matter how hard things are today, live for tomorrow for they will eventually improve.  So fight the good fight, and fight for a better tomorrow.  I send peace and love to you all.



1 comment:

  1. How very true!!! I think of this post everytime I am having a bad day, and your words get me through.